I can’t talk much about this now because I’m still trying to get through some things. The pain from realizing so many I care about really don’t care about me. I’m trying to be a man about it, grow some testicles. Still fucking hurts.
I have a cousin going through some of the things I went through with my ex. For anyone that has been reading my posts for awhile, I still haven’t given the full story about him. I am not quite ready for that, but I survived a massive heartbreak that made me want to die every single day for over 2 years. For me, it didn’t matter what anyone said. “It’ll get better!” and “you deserve better anyway!”. I knew all of this already. It didn’t matter. When you have depression and anxiety and you get hit in the chest with shit like that, excuse my language but it fucking hurts. You have to fight every single day just to stay alive. It is exhausting. So, for anyone that wants to share, please comment or email me! I want to know what got you through. For those that are going through it now like my cousin, it helps just to know you’re not alone. To be blunt, it’s gonna suck more before it gets better. You are worth fighting for. You have people that love you even if it’s not the person you want. Take your time to work through your shit and then pick yourself back up because what they say about karma is so true, she a bitch. Whether it takes 5 days or 5 years, karma comes back.
I seriously pray this so much! I hope everyone that feels like this or any other way can find happiness and come out of that water breathing.
This is what I think when I have low days. What is wrong with me that I can’t just be happy? Why can’t I do what I need to do and that’s that? I feel like I can’t do anything right. I don’t know how to get out of this when it happens. I listen to music and distract with tv. It’s too wet outside to take the girls to the park. I’m just tired of feeling like this.
This is a huge thing that I am still learning. I try to love myself but my brain is constantly telling me to think. My brain never seems to shut off. What are some ways you practice self love?
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I know how much I struggle with realizing I am enough and that my thoughts come from a dark place that always thinks the worst. I am not religious but I believe in something. What are everyone’s opinions?
I usually use breathing as my go to for anxiety, stress, and even anger. If I feel too much of an emotion, the first thing I do is make myself breathe. I have a problem with hyperventilating. The breathing kills 2 birds with one stone. Any different breathing exercises you’ve tried? I’ve also tried the 7-5-8 method (I think that’s what it’s called) when you breathe in for 7 seconds hold for 5 and breathe out for 8. Thanks as always!