I am super excited today because my man and I are camping at Mosquito Lake, about 5 minutes from our house. I bought him a new tent for Father’s Day, and some awesome extendable weiner and marshmallow roasters!
Other than that, I am still having a really rough time. I am done with physical therapy, my back feels a lot better. I have my follow up appointment on Tuesday with my doctor. They upped my Paxil, but I have had more bad days with it higher, so I am going to end up placed on some other medication. I still have not been able to fall asleep before 1 am. One day I was up until after 4:30 am. The girls have been awesome, I fainted from vasovagal syncope (I believe my heart has an arrhythmia that causes oxygen to temporarily not get to my head) based on what I experienced yesterday. I went to the hospital the last time this happened and they couldn’t find anything. I believe they would have to have me hooked up to an EKG while it happens, and this is only the second time it has ever happened.
I just wish someone cared. My family and boyfriend are awesome (family meaning the selective few that I interact with). I thought I was happy and had a ton of friends. I thought I would have these friends for the rest of my life.I guess I’m just struggling to accept that they don’t care. I have had to accept this about people before, but it sucks having all of them at once just like “Have a nice life!”.
I just miss people that don’t miss me.