Month: June 2019

My Day

I am super excited today because my man and I are camping at Mosquito Lake, about 5 minutes from our house. I bought him a new tent for Father’s Day, and some awesome extendable weiner and marshmallow roasters!

Other than that, I am still having a really rough time. I am done with physical therapy, my back feels a lot better. I have my follow up appointment on Tuesday with my doctor. They upped my Paxil, but I have had more bad days with it higher, so I am going to end up placed on some other medication. I still have not been able to fall asleep before 1 am. One day I was up until after 4:30 am. The girls have been awesome, I fainted from vasovagal syncope (I believe my heart has an arrhythmia that causes oxygen to temporarily not get to my head) based on what I experienced yesterday. I went to the hospital the last time this happened and they couldn’t find anything. I believe they would have to have me hooked up to an EKG while it happens, and this is only the second time it has ever happened.

I just wish someone cared. My family and boyfriend are awesome (family meaning the selective few that I interact with). I thought I was happy and had a ton of friends. I thought I would have these friends for the rest of my life.I guess I’m just struggling to accept that they don’t care. I have had to accept this about people before, but it sucks having all of them at once just like “Have a nice life!”.

I just miss people that don’t miss me.

I Wish I Were A Tree

Welcome to my Life

Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don’t belong
And no one understands youDo you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screamingNo you don’t know what its like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what its like to be like me
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one there to save you
No you don’t know what its like
Welcome to my life

Do you want to be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you’re bleeding

No you don’t know what its like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what its like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one there to save you
No you don’t know what its like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I’m happy
But I’m not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don’t know what its like
What its like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one there to save you
No you don’t know what its like
What its like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what its like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Songwriters: Charles-Andre Comeau / Pierre Bouvier

Welcome to My Life lyrics © Warner/Chappell Music, Inc

One Month

Hey ya’ll! It has officially been one month since I began this blog. It has reached many countries and over 1,000 views! I have not received many comments and zero contact request, so I am hoping my second month at it will make it to more people. I really want to make a difference for people of all ages who have any experiences with anxiety, depression, diabetes, neuropathy, children, childbirth, really any topic! I will always take suggestions. I also enjoy astrology and zodiac signs, I am a Pisces by the way! I was thinking about doing a daily horoscope post. I would love input to improve or to help someone specific. Thank you as always for your support! Please subscribe/comment/like/share!

Sorry, Not Sorry

For My Man

The man who has supported me unconditionally for the last 2 years. I love you and I would be in a much worse place without you by my side.

The Most Accurate Description